Aku Rindu

Apa yang kamu rasakan ketika kamu merindukan seseorang yang seharusnya kamu tidak rindukan?
Apa yang kamu rasakan ketika kamu dirindukan tapi bukan hanya kamu satu-satunya yang ia rindukan?
Aku merasakannya. Perih. Nyeri.
Terus dibohongi. Terus ditipu.
Tapi di lubuk kecil hatimu yang paling dalam, tetap, ingin sekali rasanya untuk percaya biarpun tak ada alasan untuk memercayainya lagi.

Aku ngga tahu mana yang kebih sakit, merindukan kamu atau terus dibohongin sama kamu.

Lalu tak lama, ternyata kita bertemu. It feels like um.--I really don't know what the worst, can't see you but keep missing or seeing you but...

Hai selamat bertemu lagi
Aku sudah lama menghindarimu
Sialku lah kau ada di sini

Sungguh tak mudah bagiku
Rasanya tak ingin bernafas lagi
Tegak berdiri di depanmu kini

Sakitnya menusuki jantung ini
Melawan cinta yang ada di hati

 Dan upayaku tahu diri tak selamanya berhasil
‘pabila kau muncul terus begini
Tanpa pernah kita bisa bersama
Pergilah, menghilang sajalah lagi

 Bye selamat berpisah lagi
Meski masih ingin memandangimu
Lebih baik kau tiada di sini

Sungguh tak mudah bagiku
Menghentikan segala khayalan gila
Jika kau ada dan ku cuma bisa

Meradang menjadi yang di sisimu
Membenci nasibku yang tak berubah

Dan upayaku tahu diri tak selamanya berhasil
‘pabila kau muncul terus begini
Tanpa pernah kita bisa bersama
Pergilah, menghilang sajalah lagi

Berkali-kali kau berkata kau cinta tapi tak bisa
Berkali-kali ku telah berjanji menyerah

Dan upaya ku tahu diri tak selamanya berhasil
Dan upaya ku tahu diri tak selamanya berhasil
‘pabila kau muncul terus begini
Tanpa pernah kita bisa bersama
Pergilah, menghilang sajalah
Pergilah, menghilang sajalah
Pergilah, menghilang sajalah lagi

Ya, pergilah, menghilang sajalah lagi :")

What I was afraid of... was coming up

Really--I felt so awful yesterday. cause whaaaat? and guess whaaat? Em... what I was afraid of... was coming up yesterday. He (the wrong person) was asking her (the newbie) to be his girl. What can I say? He has not changed (the bad habit) from the past and still bring it up to now. When she said about it to me, I can only do mangap. Well--from the first I have already guessed that this kind of thing will come up, but not so soon like this. Just for two weeks then?.... And the other side I know that he was on pdkt with other girl. Hah... what can I do? Stay away from him? yeah, it must be but not at once. I will do it step by step. Hm:( do you know this kind of feeling? A jealous but you're nothing to him and he is too. An angry but you don't have any right to do it. A dissapointment that you should not to feel. I feel it now. I do feel it:( by the way, he did it again on last Sunday to me and on Monday he asked the girl to be his girl? What kind of BASTARD are you huh? I promise to my self that I will keep on disctance and only meet him if I need him or other something urgent whereas I know if it's hard to do:(((( but I have to! :"). And for you, the other him in my life... I'm sorry I really have to broke our relationship  up:( this is the best way and I'm not the right person for you. I'm too bad for you, you should find a girl that faaaar away better from me ya :") forgive me if I feel 'gejolak' with another guy, I'm sorry.

Aku Tahu dan Aku Mengalaminya

Entah bagaimana mulanya...
Namun kini aku menyukai orang yang salah.
Kamu tahu rasanya ingin melupakan tapi dia bukan milik kamu?
Kamu tahu rasanya ingin move on dari orang yang bahkan bukan bekas kamu?
Dan apakah kamu tahu rasanya ciuman pertama di bibir sucimu tapi bukan oleh pacar kamu?
Aku tahu,
Aku tahu,
dan aku tahu.
Karena aku sedang mengalaminya sekarang.

Orang bilang, suka karena terbiasa. Indeed.
Aku mengalaminya.
Orang bilang, 'jangan bilang gak mungkin! Nanti kejadian lho!' Indeed.
Aku pun mengalaminya.

Tapi mau bagaimana? Perasaan itu datang dengan sendirinya.
Dia tak dijemput, justru bagai tamu tak diundang.

Kamu! Orang yang salah itu!
Benar-benar tidak tahu diri!
Datang dan pergi seenak jidat!
ada orang baru, lupa sama aku!

Untuk kamu yang lain,
Maaf. Aku udah ngga ngerasa ada gejolak lagi waktu sama kamu.
Semuanya udah luput dan pupus.
Bilang aku harus bagaimana?!
Apa kamu mau biarin aku ngerasain gejolak sama orang lain?
Tolong! Buat aku berpaling dari dia dan kembali lagi ke kamu!

Reunion

Well, I had an middle exam from last monday till tomorrow. it's about two weeks but we don't do exam for two weeks full. Last week, we only did an exam till Wed, and on Friday was Iedul Adha by the way, so I decided to go home for about five days. Before going home, I'd already planned the day that I would go out with my high school's friends. Soooo on Thursday I went to Depok to meet my mummy Aldilah, mba Icha and Rara. First, I met Rara and went to her kost for resting and waited for Dila who had any class til afternoon. Then, after Ashar I and Rara went to Margo city mall and had a lunch in Ramen1. There, finally I met mba Icha and she brought some brownies that she made it by herself and I didn't lie if the brownies is REALLY DELICIOUS!! Ah I want to eat that again *anyway it's free hehe*

Rara and Mba Icha in Ramen1 :)

Finally till we finished our food, we went around and finally met mummy!! I hugged her for a while hahaha because I miss her sooo bad. After that we went around and I looked for gift that I wanted to give to kak Deti. When we did windows shopping, we went to electronic city and tried a 3D television. Wow! It's fantastic!! We watched Mr. Simple Super Junior LG version, and it was cool! It felt like they were right in front of us! It was quiete embrassing I know but it's us. Do you have any problem huh? Hehe. Oh ya! There was Siwon there hehe I mean Siwon in paper (?) okay I mean this hihi

This. I'm sorry it can't be rotated:(

It was quiete wonderfull to spend the time with them and I think the time will never be enough for us to have fun together again just like in high school:(
On friday, it's family time and I spent it in my sweet home. Before doing qurban in the afternoon, my junior high school friend, Euis, came to my house. Ah it was really felt like reunion. Next, on Saturday I went to Bogor to meet Astari, Deti and Rara (again). It was really really took a short time because Deti only had a limit time:( Ah ya they accompanied me to have a lunch in A&W but I know it was already late to have a lunch haha. Absolutely we didn't forget to take a lot of pictures hehe

In A&W Botani Square

With Astari

I like this edit. Thanks Pixlr{}

By the way it took by front camera from iPod sooo it doesn't have good quallity hehe then we looked for photostudio. There is one in Botani, M Studio, but poor we are! It was Saturday so the studio was full and needed to enqueque for three groups. Woft! Finally we went out from Botani and look for it around Bogor. We found one! Fuji film. Buuuut, there wasn't any studio just photo copy and print photo:( Finally we only took the photo from Galaxy tab and iPod (again) hehe.

Ki-Ka: Farah, Astari, Deti, and Rara :)

I love you so much!!{}

Yeah and it's end. After taking that picture, Deti went first then Rara went to her kost. Wuft! Only Astari and me who left:( yeaah Tari met her friends in Junior High School and I did a satnight with Anandi{}.

Hijab Photosoot #1

Yuhuuuuu~ Finally my first photoshoot with ma nu babes, Dinda Firdausi Nuzula and Muthia Adillah, were taken yesterday. The photographer was Rayhan, Muthia's boy. Say a lot of thanks to him because he would wilingly shoot us :D. It was taken by my camera canon 1100D, well yeah standard camera because I want to learn about camera from the beginning and well yeah it took place in my beloved campus Telkom cause we want to take the photos from our nearest place and Telkom has wonderful view for taking photoshoot. So, let's check them out!

Gossip girl

 First photo was taken on the way to Learning Center IT Telkom and the second photo was taken on the stair of Learning Center IT Telkom.

No Parking here!

On the center of the street

Center. center. center.

Actually this theme was Vintage photoshot. Look at my and dinda's custome. But, Muthia is the one who wear the neon orange, but we are the beginner and amateur sooo just enjoy from our photos. We know we still have to learn more about this sooo please leave your comment here :)

Muthia and Rayhan. It was taken by meee :D

Dinda Firdausi Nuzula in the middle of the flowers.

Me. Farah. Street. Vintage ring.

Muthia Adillah. Flower.

Next, we took photos in, we usually say "danau galau" actually it is the target place of our photos today. I really love the view and the brightness because it was 11 but it was cloudy so it made us feel comfortable and cool.

Me.Farah. Lake. Focus on me.

Gossip girl. Focus on us :)

They say cheese, we say "muka tatib"

It was quiete hard to take this photo, really.

After taking photo in Lake, we came back to Learning Center of IT Telkom and taking photo of the side of LC which have many mirror there and it was quiete unique because it's full of mirror :)

 

Look at te back, it's a window but really have a "mirror reflection"

We pinch her chubby cheek ;)

Because Telkom complex is located in Bandung suburban and still in Dayeuh Kolot rural and Terusan Buah Batu, yeah were in the middle between Dayeuh Kolot nd Buah Batu, soo here is stil a lot of Rice field even it behind of our campus.

"ups siapa tahu, jodoh!"

Yeah that was the last photo from us yesterday. I just share several from photos that consists of around 170 photos. Once again, say thanks to Rayhan who want to spend the time for about two hours to shoot us and my babes Dinda and Muthia. Next time, we'll take in another place okaaay?! Don't be bored yaa to take photos ;;)

Braga Festival 2012

Mulai Jum'at sampai Minggu (28 sampai 30 September 2012) sepanjang kawasan jalan Braga dilaksanakan acara tahunan yang dinantikan oleh masyarakat Bandung. Well, I'm Bandung resident now so... rasanya rugi aja kalo gak nyoba dateng ke acara macam begini, biasa tinggal di Bogor yang jarang terdapat acara macam gini jadi pas gue menjadi anak Bandung harus nyoba dong? So... let's take a look at my photos there.

Farah in front of Gate of Braga Festival 2012

With Uncle Cepot and my friend, Helsima (We can call her Echy)

Jadi, Braga Fest juga terdapat penjualan pernak-pernik kesukaan kaum Hawa seperti kalung, belt, dan headband. Tapi di toko yang gue potret ini, mereka lebih menjual barang yang bermotif kehororan seperti tengkorak dan boneka voodoo.

Kalung tengkorak dan kalung boneka voodoo

Boneka Voodoo

  Little bit spooky ya sebenarnya, harganya juga bervariasi dari 15 ribu sampai 75 ribu. Tapi kalo boleh gue saranin sih, mending beli pernak-pernik macam gini di alun-alun Bandung aja soalnya harganya pas buat mahasiswa/i macam kita.

In front of Braga Festival 2012 banner

I'm soooo in love with this picture. Love it!

At Braga Cafe *only for taking a picture lol*

Ican dan Echy in front of Braga Cafe

is it look like a frame? *lol*

Do you remember that candy? uyeah, 'jajanan SD'

Feel lost?

On the corner of the street:')

At Braga Citywalk

Still at Braga City Walk

Yeaaaah so what do you think? oh yeah it's taken by Canon DSLR EOS 1100D *standard camera I know) and Syarif Al-Maula., big thanks for my brother and it was wonderful moment, next time don't miss it! Maybe it was veryyy crowded moment because of 'Nobar Bola Chelsea vs Arsenal' and metal band that made people stucked there and watch them so it was uncontrolled moment. But overall, (Y)!

Buku Tahunan Sekolah

Well--finally I graduate from my beloved school, Sahid Modern Islamic Boarding School. Sebelum kelulusan, sekitar bulan Maret angkatan kita buat sesi pemotretan buat BTS (Buku Tahunan Sekolah). Dalam sesi pemotretan ini, kami dibagi menjadi beberapa kelompok. Sayangnya, Farah dan Dila ngga satu kelompok. Kelompok Dila mengambil tema Bidadari, bersama tiga orang lainnya, Icha, Zulfah, dan Elisa.

Itu  kelompok Bidadari dari Dilah. And here is the photo of Farah's clique which have theme is Umbrella girl.

muihihi is that good?

dan kabar sedihnya adalaaah.... BTSnya belom jadi sampai sekarang:( so sad to thear that right? Masalah keuangan nih yang jadi penghalang. yeaah, waktu. Kita hanya bisa menunggu dan tetap menunggu:(. Padahal foto2nya udah bagus-bagus dan eye-catchy but--what can I say? Just wait it. Phew--"!